Tomorrow...

So, Tomorrow is the big day. In 12 hours they will be taking my blood to check for HCG hormone to see if I have a baby growing inside of me! My nerves are shot, I'm a complete mess. Today and the last week and half I've been going through fazes... one minute I totally believe I'm pregnant and another I just so can't wrap my mind around the possibility and don't think it could even be close to true... I cycle like this about every 5 minutes or so. Of course you can imagine my thoughts are ALWAYS on "AM I PREGNANT?!" I occupied my time today with a trip to the mall with a friend.. fell in love with some maternity pants at Old Navy.. saw some adorable baby clothes... and got a few things I actually needed like body wash and some sandals for the kiddos. I've also been spending some time killing pigs on my phone with the Angry Birds.. LOL. I don't think I'll sleep a wink tonight... sort of like last night when I stayed up until 1 reading what to expect when your expecting... torture?.. yes... can I help it? ...no.
This Mother's day will either be the worst yet, or the best yet in history. Aaron and I are planning a trip up to my parents house for the day on the Saturday before. I'm looking forward to seeing all the family... my sisters will be there including the one who just had a baby a few weeks ago. I'm going to try and focus on celebrating my mother, and not my own motherhood this year. So,... Deep breaths.
I will write again tomorrow... Hopefully with good news. They will call me between 10 and 3 with the results. Praying for our Miracle!